Feeling so and out of the blue

I don’t want to be melodramatic and all but lately, it’s all that I’m feeling…for no specific reasons, I find myself staring at nothing, suffering disturbed sleeps, erratic heartbeats, and an enveloping sadness. Every morning, I had to drag myself from my bed just so I won’t be late at work. At the office, I am always lost in my deep thinking and musings. I feel so old. Even blogging doesn’t pose as an attractive diversion to me now. So weird! However, there are also instances that I feel like my old self…laughing boisterously, indulging into friendly bickering with my colleagues and cracking jokes with them. But even these moments are fleeting.

Maybe I need a break…a vacation…somewhere…anywhere.

Anyways, they say this ‘illness’ is highly contagious…don’t let me draw you into my angsts…(which bdw is originally a german word that literally means 'agony'...from the movie, Don't give up on us) hahaha